It's Official......

I'm Pregnant!!! The sono today confirmed I am right on target and baby looked great. Due date of Nov 4th but praying for Oct 25, my brothers birthday and our friends daughters birthday. Thanks again for all the prayers and support.

Sono Today

The appointment is at 2pm and then I have to go straight over to the doc's. I will update later this afternoon or early evening.

My friend got me some morning sickness magic pills for the nausea. I am hoping it helps. It says it could take 3-5 days to "kick in". I try to lay down every day to help with the tiredness. Still a little worried about the sono on the 31st but I am hopeful.

Checking In

I'm still sick morning, noon and night. I would say that's a good thing even though it sucks. I wake up tired and everything requires so much effort to do. I feel hopeful about my next sono but I'm still afraid to get to excited. Dylan pointed to my belly the other night and said baby. It's not anything we have taught him so I thought that was kind of weird.

Good News!!

I can't believe I'm about to type this but.........We saw a heart beat!!! I'm in shock right now. The dates are a couple days off from where I think they should be and the sac is measuring larger then the baby but the sono guy and the doc said they weren't to concerned about it. The heart beat was 138-143 per minute. I have to get another sono in two weeks and if it's good then the doc said I would officially be labeled "NORMAL PREGNANCY". I still don't feel out of the woods yet but at least there is something to be hopeful about. Thank you so much for your prayers.

So here are where things stand,

The doctor gave me a prescription for the nausea. I have to get another sono on Monday at 2:45pm and then head over to his office. If the sono report on Monday still says there is nothing there then I will have a D&C on Tuesday. I know that God is a BIG God but I do not hold out much hope that there will be anything there and I am preparing for the D&C.

Options?

I'm going to the doc today. I have decide that I can not wait for this to happen naturally and for my sanity I need this to be over. I am going to find out what my options are and will update later.

Venting.

It's been a couple of days since I found out that this pregnancy was no longer going to turn into a beautiful healthy baby. I really wanted to let this miscarriage happen naturally but the more days that go by the more I don't know how much longer I can do this. My morning, noon and night sickness is starting to be more than I can bare. At one time it was a comfort, but now it is just a constant reminder of what will never be. I also can't stand this constant tiredness. I don't want to continue feeling this way when there is no point to it. My last blighted ovum I did not have such strong pregnancy symptoms. I am growing more and more resentful of them and feel like they are just salt in the wound. My belly continues to swell as if a cruel joke is being played on my body. I think if there is still no spotting by Monday I will get another sono just to make sure and then get into the OB to see what can be done to get this over with.

Update

I had my sono and sadly it is another blighted ovum. He said everything looked intact so I have no idea how long it will take to miscarry. My midwife is looking into what I can do naturally to help get things moving so I don't have to wait to get this done and over. I go next month to get my thyroid levels checked again and if they are still off I will not try to get pregnant until my levels are back to normal. Thank you all for your love, prayers and support.

Last post until after sono.

If nausea and tiredness is an indication of a healthy pregnancy then I'm doing great. I don't know if it is my age but I am soooooooo tired and the nausea is really starting to get bad. I'm a little surprised at how bad I feel but I look at it as a good sign that this means this pregnancy is going good and I will have a beautiful healthy baby in a few months. I am thanking God for all of my symptoms because they have been a comfort. If I didn't feel bad I would probably be worrying. I will post Monday after my sono. It is at 4:15pm so it will probably be after dinner when I post an update.

My Pregnancy Symptoms So Far.

Here are my symptoms so far. Hungry most of the time, even if food doesn't sound good. Boobs feel swollen and sore. The waves of nausea and indigestion come and go. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to get heartburn but it's stuck, if that makes any sense. I'm VERY moody and tired. I am thanking God for every one of my pregnancy symptoms, in fact when I have a moment when I'm feeling good it sometimes worries me.

5 WEEKS

Wow, I can't believe I can say that. 5 weeks seems so far away from 40 but it's one week closer then I was. Monday seems so far away too. I swear I can already feel my uterus. Again I thank you all your your prayers and support.