16 DPO

Still getting beautiful dark lines on my HPT's. I will be taking my last one tomorrow. I have a sono on the 10th of March at 4:15pm to confirm heartbeat. I'm still in a little bit of shock.

15 DPO

The spotting seems to have stopped as of yesterday. Here are pic's of the HPT's progression from 9 DPO to 15 DPO. I guess the next step is to make it to 6 weeks and get a sono to confirm heartbeat. I have two days of testing left and then I won't be taking any more. I am not sure how long I am going to temp either.

14 DPO

I noticed some spotting last night and still today too. My temp is still up but I'm starting to feel very discouraged right now. Prayers for God's will and peace to except it would be greatly appreciated.

13 DPO

My temps are still up and the waves of nausea still come and go. The lines are still getting darker.

12 DPO

11 DPO

So I think my lines are getting darker. I guess I can say it now, "I'm pregnant". Here are the latest pic's. If this pregnancy goes full term my EDD (Estimated Due Date) would be 11/04/08. Thank you for your prayers and support!

10 DPO

Two more....

HPT with two lines on them. I'm praying this little bean sticks. I will update in the morning after I take the Answer HPT. Prayers would be greatly appreciated. = )

9 DPO

So, this is what I got today at 2pm. 3 test all with the same pee. I will use my last good test in the morning. I still have tons of IC's to pee on so I may POAS again tonight but here is were I'm at for now. Can you see anything?

8 DPO & already over it.

So I've been testing and getting "indents" and "evaps" on the HPT's for the last two days so I broke down and used one of the two Anwser HPT's that I have and it was a BFN. I am already over this. I wish I could just not test until at least 10-12 DPO. That is what I tell others to do. I think when I use all of these HPT's up I will not buy any more. That way if I don't have any in the house I will not be temped to use them. My Ovusoft charting program did say that I was possibly going triphasic and to test in two days. My friend tested neg also but she is pretty sure she IS pregnant because of all of her symptoms.

Oh Well.

So I tested this morning at 7 DPO and what I thought I saw yesterday must have been evaps.

I confess.

I am 6 DPO today and have been testing. I tested in the am and afternoon. I didn't see anything in the am but the afternoon test looks like "MAYBE" there is something there. I will test again in the morning and if there is nothing there then I will know that today's was just an evap.

Hello, my name is Donna and I'm a POASoholic.

OK I'm 4 DPO and I'm dying to POAS, LOL. I can't beleive I didn't cave in and buy OPK's this month but I just keep remembering that I gave that over to God but it was hard and I was temped to. I know I should wait till at least 8 DPO before I use a HPT but the urge is there. Coffee, sugar, drugs, drinking, ect are not the only things a person can become addicted to. I'm beginning to think once my HPT's are gone that I should give those up too. We'll see, one thing at at a time. My friend Nichole has already started testing and nothing so far for her.

Another Two Week Wait has started.

My temp is slightly up and my CM seems to be drying up so it does appear that I Oed yesterday. My fertile CM seemed to be more watery then egg white this month so if this month doesn't work out I will be starting with Guaifenesin the week before O is due next month. So today is 1 DPO. Once again I will try to hold out as long as I can before I start testing but we all know how this will probably end, lol. On another note, my friend that had her baby 2-3 days before my last son was born and who just got her IUD out, just Oed a couple of days ago so it will be very interisting to see how things play out this month for the both of us. Keep those prayers coming!

Maybe today?

I got what I felt was ovulation pains today so we'll see if my temp goes up tomorrow.

Article on Home

http://www.babyworld.co.uk/information/birth/homebirth/celeb_homebirths.asp

Time to Baby Dance.

WOOO HOOO!!! It's CD 18 and I FINALLY have fertile CM!! I just hope we time the BDing good. Hard to believe a snot like substance can make some women so happy, lol.

Checking In

I'm still waiting for my fertile CM to start. I am on CD 15 now. I was really hoping to O by CD 16 but I guess it's looking more like CD 18-20. I will post when things start happening.

New Website

I'm putting together a new website that has information on TTC, HPT's, OPK's, Natural Family Planning, Pregnancy & Miscarriage. Check it out and let me know what you think and what you would like to see added. www.TTCandMore.Homestead.com

www.TheBusinessofBeingBorn.com

C-Sections On Demand

http://www.floridatoday.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20080129/LIFE/801290307/-1/archives

Thought I would share this.

In Praise of Telling Too Soon
By Katie Silberman

That thing they warn you about: it happened to me. I got pregnant. I was thrilled. I told a bunch of family and friends—and then I lost the baby in my second month. I had to untell a whole lot of people. That story was swirling around in my head. You know the one. The one "They" always say about how you're "not supposed to tell people too soon." I always hated that one. I hated it when my sister would whisper that her friends were pregnant, and then warn me, "...they're not telling people yet." It seemed so negative and scardey-cat to me. I always swore that when I got pregnant, I'd tell the whole world. Well, I did (practically). And it was great. I got the most wonderful responses, full of excitement and anticipation and appreciation for my husband Bryan and me. We had a great two months—it was fun when my clothes started not to fit; it was fun when my husband had to go out at night and get me ginger ale, just like in the stories. We even got a few cards and gifts. Then we went for our first OB appointment. The doctor saw the baby on the ultrasound, but she could not detect the heartbeat. "I think your baby has died," she said. The words didn't even sink in. My husband and I are pretty optimistic people—it truly had not even occurred to either one of us that the baby might not be okay. When we finally registered what she had said, the news was crushing; it was devastating; I felt like a balloon had been popped. Any loss can surely be utterly distressing, painful and sad. What seemed different about this particular loss, besides the fact that it was happening to us (this wasn't supposed to happen!!!), is that when I was pregnant I was coming from a place of such elation. It wasn't just normal life—it was flying high, excitement, euphoria, anticipation. And then the crash. The distance to fall seemed farther—the chasm between zenith and nadir more vast. That's where "in praise of telling people too soon" came in. My husband and I were crushed with grief and disappointment. All I wanted to do was to lay on the couch in my bathrobe all day (sometimes Bryan would gently inquire around 4 o'clock in the afternoon whether I wanted to get dressed. I would scowl at him and say no.) Not up to talking on the phone, I sent out an email message to my friends and family briefly explaining what happened. Along with "untelling," I explained that I did not much feel like receiving calls. We were inundated with caring replies, and reading the messages that poured back in was all I felt like doing those few weeks. Bryan smiled that every time I checked my email, tears rolled down my cheeks as I was touched by the waves of support from the people who loved us, recognized what we were going through, and offered us their kindness. If we had not had the outpouring of care and support from our friends and family, I am certain that couch-laying phase would have lasted a lot longer than it did. The thing about miscarriage that I most feared was that it seemed so invisible. I hadn't really looked pregnant yet; the baby was just a tiny thing (the size of a raspberry, the books said). With the code of secrecy surrounding the "don't tell too early" story, there did seem to be a residual sense of shame about what was happening; as though it should be kept in the realm of women's maladies that happen "down there," in the dark, that we're not allowed to talk about. But I knew that something real had happened to me; it was not invisible. If I had kept my pregnancy and miscarriage a secret, if I had bought the shame story, then I would not have been real. I can't even imagine having to fake it with the most important people in my life: to pretend that nothing was wrong, during one of the most heartbreaking experiences of my life. That, to me, seems much more traumatic than having to "untell" and then tell the people who love you that you could use a little love and support. And then let them give it.


Katie Silberman is Associate Director of the Science & Environmental Health Network, a national non-profit organization. Katie and her husband live in St. Louis, MO with their very busy toddler, Lincoln.

A new beginning.

Today officially starts my forth month trying to conceive. I had a couple of bad days but I really am doing good. I am really trying to just give it all to God and trust Him to work it all out. I have some down moments but in all I am doing good. I am not going to use OPK's anymore so we'll see what happens this month. My cramps are pretty bad today. They are to the point of nausea sometimes but I am hoping that doesn't last long.

Thyroid

I saw my endocrinologist today and my blood work came back that my thyroid is off. The doc adjusted my meds so maybe that will help with any future pregnancies.

Fading fast.

I tested this morning and the second line is fading. I expect to start bleeding within a couple of days. I will now have 5 angel babies in heaven.

Don't know what to think.

I caved in and tested yesterday afternoon and got a light second pink line. My temp was up this morning and I took another test and got a light second pink line. Because I was still spotting I went in to the doc and he said he thought it was most likely a chemical pregnancy and that I would start bleeding eventually. I'm not sure what to think right now. I am hoping for the best and well just have to wait and see what happens. The longest one of my chemical pregnancies lasted was 20DPO so I am on 13DPO right now. I will continue to test to see if the line get darker. I am experiencing a lot of nausea and I didn't with the other chemicals so I am holding on to some hope.

Still waiting.

Still spotting and temp is still up.

This months conclusion.

I took my last HTP this morning. I have peed on everything I could get my hands on and all BFN's. I am spotting so I would say AF is right around the corner. I think I ovulated a day earlier then my chart says. I am glad all the test are gone and I don't plan on getting any more.

I had a DUH moment.

I just realized today that I had been reading my answer OPK's wrong. After all the confusion about my OPK's this month, the answer ones where all positive. This is just another reason to not do them any more. I don't need all the drama, lol. In the picture of this months OPK's the answer ones should be turned the other way. Oh well, lesson learned and I did get a big laugh at myself.

My TTC Revelation.

In my confusion about my OPK's this month a Bible verse came to me,

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path"

And in the last few days it has dawned on me that if I want His perfect will for my life and I am leaving it up to Him if I have any more children, then I don't need to be doing the OPK's anymore. I do have some left over from this month but will not be buying any more. Today is 5 DPO and I am going to try really hard to hold off from testing as long as I can. After I use up what HTP's I have, I don't plan on buying anymore of those either until I am at least 10 DPO because the temptation to test earlier is just to strong.